Looking to the Future

I know its been a while since I have written anything here. I know I kept saying " I will start writing more I promise." Well I have finally come to the conclusion that for me to vent and feel better about all that is going on in my life, I need to write it down. I can't really keep track of a journal all that well, so this is what I have.

Lets see what all has happened.... 

- I am officially divorced from Josh. I was skeptical at first as to it being the right decision or not, but now I know it was the correct choice to make. The drama with him hasn't ended, and I'm not sure it will for a very long time.

- Kayden is One! Walking, kinda talking, and is a bubbly little toddler. Oh and a handful! 

- I am getting BACK into things that I enjoy. Cosplay and going to Conventions are a big thing for me. Im also to express myself openly and not have to suppress my nerdy/geeky/fangirl ness! 

I have also made a few goals for myself.

1. New job.... Happy to have the one at McDonalds, but unless we go 24 hour and I can get more hours, I need a new job. 

2. Learn to drive... yes I know I'm a 21 year old who doesn't drive for shame! Its going to change. 

3. Stress less... easier said than done with Josh looming around but darn it I will try! 

4. Work out.... be it walking, hiking, running, yoga, or going to a gym some how, I will start working out more. 

5. Eat better... this is kinda a big one.. Pre-diabetic... yeah... I know i should eat better but when I work getting 50% off McDonalds... its hard! 

6. Be Myself... the most important of all of them... Im done changing myself to make others happy. Don't like me or the choices I'm making.. to bad, so sad! 

I am grateful for the new friends in my life, as well as the old ones who have stuck around. To all of you, Thank you! 

So, things are changing.

Well, times are changing for everyone. Some not so good. 

Kayden is growing up so much! She's crawling like there is no tomorrow. She loves food and playing with it, but what baby doesn't! She really likes it when we go on a walk to downtown. Oh, and attention! 

I am currently trying to find a job, which is proving harder than one may think. Part time is rough to find. But i shall keep trying while also seeing if I can figure out selling bags and hats and things! 

Now for the bigger news. Sadly things just didn't work out. Me and Josh are getting a divorce. Things just didn't work out. I will not get into details but everything will be okay. I will be working on finding a job, waiting on lease to end and just slowly getting things together. Things will be figured out by us for the most part so that we can keep lawyers out of it and get things they way we both agree. Don't get me wrong. I didn't see this happening, but everything will be okay. We will both pull ourselves back up and move on with our lives.

On another note, SNOW! and negative tempatures... not my dream but its nice!!! 

We are Moving....

We are moving! 

No no no, not in that way!

Miss Kayden is crawling now! She has been attempting it for some time now. She first tried by going backwards, then laying on her tummy moving forward and laying down again.

Now that I may have scared you into thinking we were actually moving again, I shall blab!

SNOW! 

Yes we got snow in October. The NC native in me was cringing and twitching Sunday evening while we were waiting on it to start falling. Come 11pm we had a light dusting on the ground and cars. We had to laugh, since that "dusting" would have shut down the state of NC. We woke up Monday morning to even more snow and it still slowly falling. Lets have a little comparison!

This is the NC snow of 2013, in February. 

This is the 2013 in MT, in October at 9:30 am.

and again at noon!

Needless to say this is normal and nothing in Montana. Thankfully tho it is melting and the temps are slowly creeping back up a little. A high of 20 and a low of 10 is just stupid! Mojo is loving the snow tho, all you see is his red collar and the black around his eyes and mouth. Husky + Snow = Perfect Match! Amani on the other hand would rather pee inside like us than going outside, thankfully she knows better! 

And now on a final note!!! 

This is my first month in the MME! I am VERY excited to have my match for November and starting to get to know her! MME is where a group of moms (pregnant, stay at home, working, etc) can get to know each other and make friends! US and Canadian moms can sign up, currently US gets matched with US and Canada gets matched with Canada. Theres a $30 limit to include shipping. Once you get to know your match you send a package with some gifts which can be bought or handmade. The matches just came out and i have to say from the first email i received and scouting a bit on Instagram, my match is perfect for me! 

If you wanna check it out head over to Mom Mail Blog. On her blog she has a link to the Facebook and Instagram for MME! If you wanna sign up just shoot her an email and you will get matched next month! 

Now I am off to wrangle the crawling baby! 

Enjoy!

28 Weeks and some other nonsense.

Kayden is becoming such a big girl! 

She has always loved bath time. Usually the best and easiest thing to do was take one with her. Two birds one stone kinda thing. She loves bath toys, especially ones that squeak or squirt water. We found a pack of 10 toys for $10 at target one day and we cant separate them from her, she will play with them outside of the tub too. 

We also got her the toy thats the colored plastic rings. 

Which also found the bath.

We also have gotten to try new food with her! Since she has her two little teeth now she has learned to bite bits off of food and she gums them trying to chew. 

We still eat our baby food but she LOVE graham crackers! she would eat a box if we let her. 

We like green beans too.

Nom Nom Nom!!!

Now that she can sit up by herself we have found it easier to NOT plop her in  a stroller at stores. Once less thing to drag in. So we have been off and on putting her in what we call the "big girl seat". Its handy and easy to pick her up when she gets upset or makes her grabby hands. She seems to like it too.

Recently Mojo, our cute little fluffy husky pup, has found it nice to "get out" for a little bit. He jumped the fence many times and wandered off. Not sure if theres a female in heat or he is trying to be an alpha male to the dog on the corner. Well we thought a leash for outside would work. He just pulled his collar off. So off to Lowe's we went for fencing!

She loves those car carts. She was steering with her wheel, and there wasn't a horn but she was honking it. She would stick out her left arm, so in the spirt of things we only made left hand turns! She was so happy. We will be going for these carts where ever we go! 

27 Weeks.

27 Weeks

This week Kayden is 27 weeks old. The weeks isn't even over and i feel like its a Sunday and we really need a fireplace. 

We love the camera

She loved the after bath photo shoot! 

Must Clean... Must Organize!!!

So its official, I am on an cleaning and organizing kick! 

My hopes are to get a whole lot of bins, crates, and containers. Just so that everything will have its space. Unused clothes will go to goodwill or be stored in the spare room. The garage will finished being cleaned so that (since winter is here already *sigh*) we can park the car in there. So on and so forth through all the rooms in the house! 

I have many plans! Maybe even to many! 

I may even clean out the car... 

I do know one thing... that once I am done or almost done with this cleaning and organizing thing, it will make preparing for christmas a whole lot easier. I have so many things to make for gifts! 

I am really hoping that i can get a lot of this cleaning/organizing out of the way in the next couple weeks. Some of Josh's family should be visiting soon to see all of us. Last time they saw her in person was well when i was still pregnant, then his mom saw her when we had her. So its been a very long time! 

So I am off... Off to make a list of my to-do's, to-get's, must haves, etc! 

OH.. on a side note... 

Montana is true to its "seasons" (if you want to call them that)

When we arrived at the end or March, it was still snowing. That ended about April-ish. So May-August was the "spring - summer" which was very nice to my surprise! August - Mid September was filled with a lot of construction. Which compared to North Carolina seems to start and be done almost on one day! Over night we hit fall.. literally. Sadly unlike NC it does not linger and slowly decline into winter. Nope, that hit two weeks later. Snow... in September. A "snow shower" in MT is about how much NC gets in its whole winter! So while I was really looking forward to this while white christmas things. It looks like a white thanksgiving and maybe even halloween will be in store. 

So im going to go keep warm and organize! 

6 Months

6 Months

Or 26 Weeks

Miss Kayden is now 6 months old! 

Shes such a big girl now.. or should i stay still! 

We had to go to Great Falls for some clothes shopping at Old Navy, so we bumped up her appointment (what good that did us) we still have to go back on the 27th to get her shots BLEH! 

She weighs 18 lb. (85th %)

Is 27 1/4 in. tall (95th %)

And head is 17 in. (85th %)

Thanking Mom for these wonderful pictures! 

Kayden had a runny nose for a few days which is getting better but it made for some funny pictures! 

Such a happy baby!!!! 

Mojo and Kayden :)

And we have made a breakthrough! 

Her tooth has finally cut through!